Getting My Life BACK

So, when I named this blog YEARS ago...I chose the name because I tend to hurry.  I hurry through the day, trying to get to the next thing.  Trying to be efficient with my time and squeeze 15 things into a 10 thing time slot.  With the need to SLOW DOWN, I began this blog and named it "Living In The Moment".  Along with the name, came the reminder that I want to LIVE In the Moment.  To soak it in.  To slow down so I don't hurry through the great things.  To be IN THE PRESENT.

Life is grand.
I have wonderful kids.
A great husband.
Amazing Friends,
and A God that constantly loves me and pursues me.
Why not DOCUMENT those things?

But today, as I type this update.
I find myself LIVING in not such a beautiful MOMENT.
At this time, I am in Wayne, PA...preparing for spinal surgery.

The short version of the story...
My back hurts.
It began hurting years ago.
Not sure what I did to it.
But after exhausting all conventional options:
ie:  physical therapy, traction, ice, heat, massage, chiropractic care, dry needling,  ASTYM,  Epidural injections, medications
I find myself HERE, in THIS moment.

Tomorrow is my first physical appointment with The Laser Spine Institute.
Since finding them and their review on my MRI...I am finally meeting the medical staff that will help me move forward to fix the problems I have at L5-S1.
My hope is to get my life BACK.

I have missed out on so much over the last year due to this pain.
But I sit here with hope.
Hope in a positive outcome.

I know that God has directed my steps to this place.
I know that He loves me.
I know that He sees the bigger picture.
And even in this not so beautiful moment in my life...I have begun to see beauty.

And so the journey continues.
I am nervous about the next few days...
but I am confident that God has led me here.
I am a little scared...
but I know that He holds me and He will not let me go.