I Feel Like Im Losin' - Tenth Avenue North

I love to listen to Tenth Avenue North. It is a band that I admire. Everytime a cd comes out....I buy it and listen to it while reading each word on the cd cover. God speaks through this band. Had to share this new song....it's not even on a cd yet but it was shared on their web site. I heard it for the first time last night, listened to it like 20 times in a row...Honest, deep words. Good stuff! Forgiveness is key in our lives - period!


FEELS LIKE I’M LOSING – Tenth Avenue North
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I cant believe what she said
I cant believe what he did
Don’t they know it’s wrong
Don’t they know it’s wrong
Well maybe there’s something I missed
But how could they treat me like this
It’s wearing out my heart
The way they disregard

This is love or this is hate…
We all have a choice to make

Oh, Father wont You forgive them
They don’t know what they’ve been doin, oh no.
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin.

Well it’s only the dead that can live
But still I wrestle with this
To lose the pain that’s mine
Seventy times seven times
Cause Lord it doesn’t feel right
For me to turn a blind eye
Though I guess it’s not that much
When I think of what You’ve done.

This is love or this is hate…
We gotta a choice to make


Oh Father wont you forgive them
They don’t know what they’ve been doin’ , oh no
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin’

Why do we think that our hate’s gonna break a hard heart
We’re rippin arms over wars that don’t need to be fought
Cause pride wont let us lay our weapons on the ground
We build our bridges up but it’s just to burn them down
We think our pain is own apologies and get them to stop
Well truth be told it doesn’t matter if their sorry or not
Cause freedom comes when we surrender to the sound
Of Your mercy and Your grace, Father, send Your angels down

Oh Father wont you forgive them
They don’t know what they’ve been doin’
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin’
I feel like I’ve been losing

Oh Father wont you forgive them
They don’t know what they’ve been doin’
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin’
I feel like I’ve been losing

Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin’

Community

My husband is a big OSU fan. So, a couple of years ago, we took our two boys to see the spring game. I vividly remember walking into the Ohio State Horseshoe. It was an amazing feeling. I wont lie to ya, my eyes teared up. Not because of my love for the game because my football knowledge doesnt come close to most. My tears were a result of the overwhelming sense of community. There werent just "people" everywhere....there were "FANS" everywhere. A sense of "we have a specific in common" saturated the Shoe. Smiles. Cheers. Greeters. Hot dogs. Scarlet and gray. Noise. Turf. Stained glass. Class. I will never forget it. My husband jokes that the Shoe is "church for football". I can see why that is said. I get the same feeling when I go to my church. I get the same feeling when I go to a school basketball game. An Amy Grant concert. When I see another mother struggling with trying to reason to her seven-year-old in Walmart. You find yourself in this place...with people whom you know or dont know....but the REASON you are there joins your lives together...even if it is just for a moment.

I love community on every level. I love being in the stands with the crowd. I love having a common thread with others that I dont even know. But my heart smiles when I look at the Team. The team has a depth of community. It is sacred. It is heart-warming. It is inspiring. Each person on the team is drawn to one another. There is a togetherness with the team. A sense of "whether we are on the sidelines or on the field we are in this game together". They have each other's backs....and for a season, they are as close as family.


I love community.
Jesus demonstrates community in a simple way.
He was on earth for everyone....
He associated with everyone He could get near....
He was real with everyone He came in contact with...
But he chose to do life with 12 guys.
They prayed together.
They travelled together.
They ate dinner together.
They fished together.
They ministered together.
They cried together.
They cared for others, together.
No wonder we are drawn more to some people than to others. Not to say that we are a clique...or to say that we are exclusive in who we hang out with....there is just a simple depth to our community. I have many friends....but there are few that I crave to be with. There are a handful that I have not seen in a decade, but I know that when I do see them again, we will pick up right where we left off. What a gift it is when you find those people. Thankful today for those hearts that God entrusts to me. Praying that I can be the person that they need me to be...the person that God wants me to be for them.

May we be aware of all levels of community in our lives...may we be Christs hands and feet to all we meet. May we feel the weight of the hearts that God entrusts to us. I love community!