Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Raising kids

Missing my sweet Coen while he is at camp this week.  We have never been apart this long.  I am praying for God to do great things in his life at camp.  As his mom, it is so inspiring to watch God develop him into the man he is becoming.  As parents, we have one shot to raise our kiddos. I fail many times.  I'm learning though.  The truth is... our kids are Gods before they are ours.  They belong to Him.  We are assisting God in molding them. It's a big job.  A difficult job.  A fun job. "The days are long, but the years are short".  Make each day count! :)

Monday, May 13, 2013

Getting My Life BACK

So, when I named this blog YEARS ago...I chose the name because I tend to hurry.  I hurry through the day, trying to get to the next thing.  Trying to be efficient with my time and squeeze 15 things into a 10 thing time slot.  With the need to SLOW DOWN, I began this blog and named it "Living In The Moment".  Along with the name, came the reminder that I want to LIVE In the Moment.  To soak it in.  To slow down so I don't hurry through the great things.  To be IN THE PRESENT.

Life is grand.
I have wonderful kids.
A great husband.
Amazing Friends,
and A God that constantly loves me and pursues me.
Why not DOCUMENT those things?

But today, as I type this update.
I find myself LIVING in not such a beautiful MOMENT.
At this time, I am in Wayne, PA...preparing for spinal surgery.

The short version of the story...
My back hurts.
It began hurting years ago.
Not sure what I did to it.
But after exhausting all conventional options:
ie:  physical therapy, traction, ice, heat, massage, chiropractic care, dry needling,  ASTYM,  Epidural injections, medications
I find myself HERE, in THIS moment.

Tomorrow is my first physical appointment with The Laser Spine Institute.
Since finding them and their review on my MRI...I am finally meeting the medical staff that will help me move forward to fix the problems I have at L5-S1.
My hope is to get my life BACK.

I have missed out on so much over the last year due to this pain.
But I sit here with hope.
Hope in a positive outcome.

I know that God has directed my steps to this place.
I know that He loves me.
I know that He sees the bigger picture.
And even in this not so beautiful moment in my life...I have begun to see beauty.

And so the journey continues.
I am nervous about the next few days...
but I am confident that God has led me here.
I am a little scared...
but I know that He holds me and He will not let me go.

Monday, May 6, 2013

I am a better BLOCKER than I am a BLOGGER

Well, here I am...Over a year later writing in my blog.  I am not very good at this thing.  
Wonder why....?
Is it this mental BLOCK I have about being real about my feelings?  
Feelings are exhausting.  
Truth about me?   I am a better BLOCKER than I am a BLOGGER.
Yet, here I am...again.

I think the recent events that are happening in my life have brought me back to this page.
Feeling the need to record my thoughts.
To document this moment in which I am living.

To warm are some pic's of the kids.  Stay tuned to this  blog though...I'm going to be sharing more  really soon.

Thirteen and Counting

My baby boy turned 13 last month.  Thirteen?  How does that happen?  
I have watched Coen mature throughout the last year.  My true goal in life is to show him a God that loves him unconditionally.  To help him find his God-given purpose...not only in life...but in each day.  And to fall in love with Jesus...more and more.  Above all...may he find and experience how REAL God is...and how often God pursues each of us every day.

Yes that is a huge donut!  Leave it to a teenager to toss the traditional birthday cake out.  He likes to be different.  I'm all for being unique but please don't take it out on the butter cream frosting.  We made up for it with Josh's cake :)

Josh is 10

If anything...Josh enjoys life. This year he is really into Mine Craft. 
It's funny too see the all the hype over this pixilated video game.  Compared to all the perfected digital games out kinda compares to kids playing with the box that the gift came in.  

His birthday was a blast at the bowling alley.  His cake was delicious.  EXTRA butter cream frosting.  Little Stirr, you never let me down.

Of course, I have the same spiritual hope for Josh.  He was baptized last year.  It is a joy to see how Josh processes life... and how God is very much part of his thoughts and the choices that he makes.  I love being a mom.